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Jamie's Thoughts During Birth
Oh is that my
water breaking? The water is coming out so slowly . I’ll run to the
bathroom. (Getting up) Oh, Wow, that’s a BIG contraction, it
must be my water breaking. (to my husband)” “Call the doctor
while I get into the shower”.
OH, I love being in this warm water. It feels soooo good. I almost don’t mind the pains at all. Mmmm, , It feels good for the water to run off my belly, (Out of the shower) Now that the bag of waters is gone, I feel that my belly is half empty, I can really feel the baby moving and I can see her little knees Oh , this is so exciting.! Thank you honey for the cup of tea. It tastes so good, and relaxes me. He is loading up the car as I rock in my chair. He keeps making trips back into the house. He looks a little nervous and keeps asking me if I am okay. He has already called the sitter to come to watch the kids. I am glad he is taking care of all this. I can just concentrate on having the baby. (On the road ) One o’clock in the morning........there is no traffic. It is hard to sit in the car on the way while I have contractions, It was so much better at home, when I could rock and walk and move with the pain . I can’t wait to get out of this car and move again. (At the hospital) Claudia is such a nice nurse. She says she is also a midwife. She said she knows how to help me through natural birth. Thank you God, for Claudia. Even with this third baby, I don’t feel like I know how to do it without help. Oh , here it comes,. Breathe. Breathe.Yes, in through my nose slowly, out through my mouth. Rock, rock, breathe breathe (Claudia is nodding, like she is saying I am doing it very well) Yes, I am doing okay. I can do this. I will just take one contraction at a time. I just have to get through one at a time. I am doing the breathing..I am doing a good job. They are only lasting a minute. I can do this. The peak is only about a half minute, four deep breaths, how short they are, only a minute. I can do this. The doctor wants me to stay in bed. But I told him I have to move with the pain, stand, rock, whatever I feel like doing. The contractions are slowing down now that I am confined to bed while she is monitoring me to check on the baby. When she is done monitoring , I have to get up again! The contractions are getting intense and closer now that I am out of bed; the leaks are lasting so long. I wonder how much harder they will get. Claudia says that this is the hard part of labor. She says I am in transition. The doctor comes in and says that he will not be here to deliver the baby, that he has to catch a plane. He and his wife have a vacation. He has to go in an hour. But I can have this baby in an hour. I want to go on vacation too, but I am in labor. NO, don’t go. This is not the right time to be telling me this! I say,,You should have told me at my last visit... I don’t want the other doctor to deliver, me, I want this doctor to stay . Nancy, my friend, told me that Dr P is the best there is. I grab the lapel of his lab coat with the next contraction and beg him not to leave. I tell him that I will try to hurry up and deliver if he will let me out of bed. I will even be continuously monitored. My husband looks embarrassed that I am being so insistent. They are harder and I have to change my breathing to a faster paced pattern. Claudia the nurse nods to tell me I am doing a good job. She isn’t saying anything. She knows I couldn’t concentrate if she talked now. Between contractions she tells me she knows that this is hard to do, but I an doing it. Ok, now it is getting REALLY harder and I have to close my eyes to go inward to concentrate. HEE HEE HOO , 1-2-3, HHEE HEE HOO. 1-2-3.faster.faster this is the peak. I can do this if I just do this over and over, until it is done. Claudia says I won’ t have to do this for long. Yes, here is a break, Feels good, eat some ice, rock slowly, Oh, it doesn’t last long. HEE HEE HOO 1 -2 3 My breathing sounds like I am running fast, , like I am running away; from the contraction, She pats the rhythm of the paced breathing out on my leg so I can keep doing it. Thank you, that helps. She is doing it with me. If she keeps patting my leg, I can breathe to that rhythm. She better not stop or I will stop too.. I don’t feel like I am alone. I have my eyes shut, but I can hear my husband and the nurse. These pains are so much longer, How long do I have to do this.??. I imagine that I am breathing faster like when I run and I am at the end of the run. OK now I am feeling a LOT of pressure from the baby, All the pressure is on my bottom. I tell Claudia and she says, “ GOOD.” It is a familiar feeling . I am tired, but I want to push my baby out. I want to be done, I want to see her. I will push really hard. I have done this before. The first time was hard, I didn’t know how. They had to tell me how. But this time I know what to do. OOH, . It is a LOT of pressure, uncomfortable. But the labor pain is gone, yes. I concentrate on a picture of a baby which I taped on the wall near my bed. As long as I see the baby, I can do this for her. I am pushing, while the nurse is getting the delivery table ready. She keeps walking in front of my baby picture as she gets ready, I need to see the baby to get through this... I am upset that she walks in front of the baby, but I can’t say anything, because I am pushing. Ok, now the doctor is here, thank goodness, As far as I am concerned, I am done. A few more pushes, but this is the end. Oh, she is soo beautiful. I lie back with her warm wet little body on my chest. Claudia says she is not pink enough and they need to give her a little bit of oxygen so she will ‘pink up” and then I can have her back. They hand her back to me and I kiss her forehead. I nurse her and she does beautifully. Then my husband says it is his turn. He has waiting for this for nine months. And he named her himself, Jill Allison.
Please send your birth story to Lara@ABetterChildbirth.com. I look forward to hearing from you!
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